sorry is de onli ting i can sae.

im sorry to hurt u once again. i noe tis doesnt help. but tats all i can sae.
i sae b4 tat i cant promise u aniting n ask u to accept xh but tat will onli make u disappointed in mi. dere's nth mre i can do. i do love u. but nt as much as last time. maybe u love mi too late. im de one in fot. u can hate mi. i wont blame u for tat. im de one hu let u dwn.
but jux wana let u noe, it sad for mi to receive ur msg. i noe wat u read in my blog will make u alot mre sad than mi. i noe de pain in u i can nv understand. but jux wana let u noe. im sad too. my heart aches wen i read ur msg. im afraid to receive ur msg cox i wont noe wat to do n wat to sae. no matter wat i sae will nv let u hapi again. i onli noe tat i reali feel v bad n xin ku wen i read ur msg.
i will alwaz rem tat dae wen i mit u up. although tats onli for less than a hr. but it's precious to mi. i din 4get abt tat dae. last few daes u msg mi n tell mi tat u din 4get abt tat dae. actualli i rem it mre than u do. i did nt 4get abt it at all. im de one hu don cherish u. i admit tat im fickle minded. im nt de same as last time animre. i duno y. u r once v impt in my life. every msg u send i kp it. all becox i wanted to kp it as memories. i still rem tat once my frenz saw u at sentosa n i was at hm slpin. wen dey msg mi n tel mi tat dey saw u. i rush dwn n by de time i reach dere. i onli saw u in de toilet n u r abt to go hm. although i can onli c u for a few secs. but i admit it's worth it. i did nt 4get u.
maybe u wont read my blog again. but tats all i wana sae.

celebratin my bro bdae in advance todae. was shoppin in suntec n suddenly receive msg frm pf. n tat make my whole journey v xin ku. my heart do ache as u. n it make mi feel so xin ku. den i told liz abt it. n she sae tat maybe let pf noe tat will be beta n time will heal her wound. is tat so? i admit im a bastard. im hurtin so mani pple nowadaes. i cant make everyone ard mi as hapie as last time. i haf changed. i duno y. im onli makin pple sad. everydae. one by one. is hurt by mi. so pple pls leave mi b4 i hurt anione of u again.

f&n lesson nw!

sians wor nw at com lab havin f&n lesson.. don feel lk doin de coursework at all so come here blog.. hahas... yest 4 periods of f&n at com lab oso den i slp 3periods of it sia.. hahaha. steady har.. sian ar todae gt sports heat.. tink i donwan go run liao.. hahas... den todae skool trainin haf to help phoenix train dey all cox phoenix gt course.. v tired leh... i wan go hm slp de.. hahas..
yest go watch de eye10.. quite funny sia.. to mi cfm scary la... hahas.. mit 7 outside jp but in de end all late except mi, liz n laosai sharon. hahaha... den yest nv bring bag jiu use laosai sharon de bag to cover.. her bag full of laosai smell.. hahaha jkjk!! basically.... I DIN C ANI OF DE GHOST FACE AT ALL!! hahaha! i cover all wen i c ani horror part den jiu c onli de subtitles.. hahas.. yest gt 10 of us go watch sia.. such a big grp.. after movie jiu went to eat ljs.. den mani of them left 1st.. den left mi, xiao jac, laosai sharon, felicia n joyce.. eat finish le jiu go hm.. dey all live so near all tk bus den ke lian de wo tk train.. hahaha.. reach hm abt 11plus den cox my flat is doze long long corridor den i don dare go up alone den jiu call my sis come dwn fetch mi.. wahahaha! don dare to tk lift oso.. hahas... den yest ard 12plus my aunt call mi n sae gt earthquake.. cox she live at higher floor den can feel de shakin but my hse too low so cant feel aniting.. even my cousin live at bugis dere de oso call us sae gt earthquake.. but i still slp until nth happen. hahas.. den tis mornin jiu go read de newspaper n reali gt earthquake at de duno where.. quite a big earthquake wor.. 8.2 hahaha..
so sians so sians so sianssss.... lata de lessons i cfm fall aslp sia..




[seein ur smile is enuff]
[jux a smile frm u can brighten up my dae]

sians

sians leh weekend passed so fast.. tml skool again.. hais... den weekdaes jiu so slow.. tml haf go watch de eye10 wif liz dey all -__-" again i pay money go dere watch subtitles.. hahas...
damn tired leh! yest trainin make my whole body muscle ache.. duno y nw headache again.. cut my hand while cutin tomato! wahahaha.. n is reali a DEEP cut lor.. buden hor.. although v deep but no blood wor.. is tis means tat im thick skin?!! hahas bu ke neng la.. i so humble one.. haha! deep cut but no blood but damn pain! hahas..
jux rem yest durin trainin.. mi n huijun jiu compare our age n dob.. den i told her mine den she ask mi whether i libra de izit.. i sae ya den she sae libra r flirt... izit?? hahas.. hmm. maybe.
im soooo lazy to do my hmwk!! sians!




[will u avoid mi if u noe abt tat? maybe jux treat it as nth happen will be beta ya]

im so tireddd

todae trainin so tired.. stupid weite let us run so much! hahas.
todae 1plus mit sharon, amelia, manlin n wanhui go sentosa.. in de end dey late again den sharon haf to treat mi 50cents honeydew! wahaha.. den dey reach le still wan go harbourfront eat.. din noe tat dey wan go dere eat ljs wen dere don haf la. haha.. in de end go da bao mac den go sentosa eat.. i bring my "big" soccer ball dere too..eat finish le jiu haben play for even 15mins jiu rain.. den in de end we go tk bus bac to yuhua.. super earli reach yuhua cc todae.. hahas.. den nobody at dere den we jiu use my "big" soccer ball to play.. so funny sia... in de end trainin we too tired to train liao.. haha.. den weite still torture us! hahas..
den liz come our trainin todae cox cg no trainin.. den train n play together.. after trainin jiu go hm le cox super tired liao.. whole body cramp sia. haha.. n my toe is so pain!! haha..
so tired... gg slp soon..yawns.
den chris msg mi todae..sae she decided to gif up on mi le.. maybe tats a gd ting for her.. hope she can find someone hu reali love her ba..




[she is nt dere tonite. feel kinda weird. hais]

yawns

todae 12plus in de noon den wake up sia.. damn tired.. kena waken up by de ah pek icecream dwnstairs at my flat dere.. den jiu wake up duno y feel lk eatin jiu go dwn buy wif my sis.. hahas... den todae jux nice my whole family is at hm.. v long don haf everyone at hm liao.. haha.. den jiu go dwnstairs eat wif them... reach hm le jiu nth to do ly on my sis bed den jiu fall aslp again! hahas.. steady huh... den nw wake up le duno wan go yuhua nt.. cox duno is liz dere.. so waitin for her msg nw. buden tink by de time she msg mi, i no nid go liao cox is too late.. n i nid 1hr to travel to dere... hahas..
yest go trainin at batok.. so sians mi alone.. liz n bao dey all nv go.. kelian sia go trainin alone... after trainin jiu go hm str cox too tired.. den duno hw i sprain my leg toe de sia. damn pain nw... walk oso gt probs.. hahas.. steady sia lidat oso can sprain.. den yest trainin tink my team play till too rough liao.. den scare da bian sharon dey all will angry.. hope dey wont ba.. den duno tml wan go sentosa wif them nt cox after tat still gt trainin.. v tired... hais tml trainin alone again.. sians ar........



[suprise to c her at my trainin yest..duno whether shld i feel hapie to c her..no idea..]

IM SUCH A BIG FOOL!

im a BIG FOOL!!
earli in de mornin in mac heard de radio sae tat libra will haf a gd dae todae. wth is all rubbish!
after skool went for bball meetin den after meetin jiu acc chris n simin dey all go eat.. waited for my sis n bro at tm den go watch spongebob.. while havin trainin..she msg mi n ask gt go batok play ball nt.. den she sae if we gg den dey all gg in de evenin.. actualli is mi nv go de but in order to haf chance to c her, i call liz n bao n ask them to go play ball.. str after movie jiu tk train rush to batok.. reach batok le call liz den she is still slpin at hm.. call bao she din ans cox she is still in yishun dyein her hair. den im damn pek chek to rush all de wae here wen nobody is here.. den jux nice she msg mi n sae maybe she n de rest gg another court play ard 8plus.. is becox of her den i ask liz dey all go play de lor den nw she sae gg another court n is so late. although she sae playin in batok but nv sae which court. cant blame her.. can onli blame myself cox im stupid! she oso nv force mi to go..is i ownself willing to travel all de wae dere.. den in de end reach batok le oready damn fed up n no mood jiu go kfc buy a drink n tk train back hm! wth man! den jiu msg her sae i nt gg play animre.. all she sae is 'oh kaes nvm'..jux by seein tis make mi damn sad.. im jux stupid.. zi zuo duo qing..wth.
den wen gg back at jurong east dere saw shiqin dey all.. but din call them.. firstly im wearin skool uni den v paiseh. secondly, dey sure will ask mi wat i doin dere den cant possibly tell them i tk train to batok n nw tkin bac hm rite! tis will onli make mi mre stupid! wasted 2hrs tkin train todae! u tink i reali so free to travel all de wae dwn frm east to west! it's all becox of u! i onli make a fool out of myself. stupid mi.. don cherish doze hu love mi n choose to make myself a fool!
TODAE IS SUCH A FREAKIN DAE FOR ME!!!



IM A FOOL!

1st dae of skool.sians.

hais holidae so fast jiu finish leh.. go back skool so sian! tryin v HARD to pay attention but still fall aslp.. hahas.. don even do my hmwk sia.. jialat jialat... den tis mornin go skool assembly den weijie told mi gt new classmate den i still tot he tok cock den in de end reali gt a new classmate! haha.. frm unity sec de wor.. heard tat is bballer but don look lk leh... haha. den she noe amanda too. haha fei hua same skool de ma...
den everyone in de skool c her oso kp lookin cox new gal ma.. haha machiam nv c gal b4 lidat... den my class guys r so hyper todae.. bth... hahas..
hmm den todae after skool jiu go buy tings wif shuyi dey all den go hm slp.. so tired seh... hahas..
so sians...........tml is onli tues....hais.







[imissu]

19/o3--joyce bdae!

*coughs* it's joyce bdae todae.. hahas..

yest play against west zone again.. lost de game.. but i tink is ok ba cox west is reali strong n tough.. we too soft.. hahas.. den yest after de game duno y moodswing again den don feel lk gg eat wif liz dey all den mi jiu go hm... sians duno y recently alwaz moodswing..
lata gt yuhua trainin.. mitin liz go buy joyce present lata.. hahas.. yea i psycho liz n bao don go trainin den pei mi go yuhua.. hahaha! buden actualli bao gt family dinner ma... den liz is v tired so im helpin her to rest ok.. hahas... sian sia.. tml sun le den jiu mon den jiu skool reopen le!! hais.. haben do my hmwk oso... go bac skool jiu is time for stress liao.. haha..
den jux nw go dwnstairs eat breakfast wif mum n bro..den on de wae bac hm, bro buy a pineapple to eat den while waitin for lift mi wanted to hit his arm den he suddenly turn den mi jiu hit his hand n his pineapple jiu drop. hahaha.. he onli eat a few mouth onli sia den he jiu cry.. wth man!! cry becox of a fruit! haha den mi jiu cant stop laffin den he kp cryin.. wan to buy him a new piece he donwan.. den nw he lock himself in his room watchin cartoon donwan tok to mi...baichi sia.. guo ran shi wo de didi.. hahaha.. so long nv stay at hm n spend time wif my family liao sia..alwaz play ball..den yest nite go eat dinner wif my family den lk v long nv eat wif them lidat liao.. den sis n bro jiu start to tok lame jokes again.. n is reali damn lame n cold de jokes... bth sia.. haha wat a "cute" family i haf.. hahaha..
so bored so bored.. hais den go bac skool c them oso duno wat to sae n wat to do...





[fall for u is de biggest mistake]

sooo bored.

xuelian selection todae.. play against other zones.. tml will be playin against west for 1st n 2nd placing.. tink my teammates r reali gd.. dey played well todae.. hope tml dey can play even beta..
hmm kinda sian.. whole holi didnt haf time to stay at hm slp.. everydae oso go out play ball.. will die ar... i miss my bed.. hahas.. so bored!





[im missin someone tat i shldnt miss]

sunburnt``

converse 3on3 todae.. get 3rd.. tyco de oso... haha.. play under de hot sun sia so hot!! den nw whole body so pain n black.. hahas.. saw pris n her bf at dere too..hmm nt shuai. haha.. hmm den mood damn bad durin de 3on3.. duno y... jux don haf de mood to laff n joke ard..
den yest go bao hse ton.. in de end i was de 1st to slp.. too tired liao.. haha.. den earli in de mornin haf to wake up but in de end still wake up late den go rp for de 3on3.. haha..
hmm..tml de xuelian selection.. sian ar go oso sian... duno de pple den oso nv tok to them. so paiseh.. haha bo bian anti-social.. wont get selected aniwae... don care oso la.. haiz sian...




[HAIS]

11th march =]

yest 11th march.... my 1st bbq wif phoenix n lanest.. although nt everyone were hapie...but quite a memorable dae..
went to east coast ard evenin time den set up all de tings.. ard 7, phoenix, ms ho, juvone,sujun n jingting came.. eat finish le jiu play de games.. n i piggyback georg durin de race.. cheryl(pig) piggyback chris n dey win de race! wth! chris skinny ma den pig so strong of cox will win.. hahaha! phoenix piggyback ms ho n dey get 2nd.. mi n georg get 3rd.. actualli we play cheat one la.. wahahaha! after tat jiu play dog n bone.. my team gt phoenix, huibin, chris, sheena n huiying... at 1st phoenix still sae dey all stupid duno hw to play den in de end phoenix oso gong toot toot run wen is nt her turn! den everyone went to whack her.. hahaha!
n i din noe phoenix can sing! haha.. wth man.. at dere sing jay de song wif chris n huibin.. make mi bbq till halfwae laff till pengz.. hahas.. play finish de games le everyone jiu go bac eat again..
mi, pig, chris, wuman, shujun n simin jiu went to play 'pepsi cola' haha.. mi kp losin lor wth. wuman kp winnin... even pig oso can win!! hahas..
ard 10plus, phoenix dey all haf to went bac to skool for camp.. den wen dey abt to go off, phoenix ask mi wats my surname den i still gong gong ans her den de rest shout n sae phoenix wan throw water bomb at mi den wen i abt to run....phoenix oready whack de bomb at my head.. wth n my hair is flat.. den after tat i haf to chase her n throw at her.. in de end......everyone was wet... n phoenix haf to go buy clothes b4 gg bac skool.. hahas..
den after dey go off...de rest of us jiu stay at east coast slp n eat... cant slp properly cox was so noisy dere.. den midnite lidat phoenix jiu call mi n sae if aniting happen mux call her no matter hw late den ask mi to tk gd care of them... n she sae she nv attended a bbq as hapie as tis.. hahas she is such a gd coach cum teacher hor.. sae tat kind of ting wan make us cry sia.. haha.. den in earli in de mornin she call mi again n ask if aniting was ok.. so naggy sia her.... hahas.. den ard 7plus in de mornin jiu went hm.. tk cab hm n slp till 5plus den wake up.. hahas.. no trainin durin due to big rain in jurong..
holiday le...but kinda sian cox still haf to go bac skool.. tues haf to go sac for de trainin den dey will choose 12players to represent east zone to compete wif other zone for de xuelian selection.. sian..go oso wont get selected.. still duno wana go nt..
so slpy.. haix....[memories]