.

got bac frm SP team BBQ @ east coast.
im aching all over due to slpin on hard floor.
im so freakin tired but i cant get to slp.
haf 2 tuitions frm 1pm to 5pm lata.
after tat gonna go till batok to play ball
im gonna get so tired again =/
shoulder achin lk hell.

guess de most fun part yest nite was wen liz, ade n i inside de car. haha
cos ade rent an auto car den she let us try out in de carpark.
auto lk toy car lidat cos nth much to do.
but i was screamin lk hell cos i gt so nervous.
end up became lk im sittin at de driver seat but ade controllin de steerin wheel,
cos i kp lettin go of de steerin wheel.
haha!
i guess i'll haf a hard time wen i go for drivin lesson.

yeah my FTT frm 10/12 brought fwd to 23/11 den i jus brought fwd to 13/11.
thou lk nt much diff.
hope nth goes wrong wif my FTT (choy!)
den maybe after my bdae will go tk up drivin lesson.
maybe ard once a wk.
if nt scare practical mus wait for v long.
drivin is so fun :)
(onli wen i didnt hit de curb)
hahaha.


im 2mre steps closer to my picanto.
my next yr bdae present for myself.
hopefully...
haha

aniwae,
even my mum look dwn on mi wen i said im takin auto =/
cos my sis takin manual but i diedie oso wan auto.


haiii.
next wk gonna be another busy busy wk.
2mre wks n IVP will end n i'll be free.
hopefully...



cherish/

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i seriously gave up on my life nw.
it's only first wk of skool n im so fuckin sick of it.
im ready to gif up everything.
i jus hope tat after skool de most go for tuition n i can head hm str,
and nth else!
im physically n mentally drained out.

look at my schedule for these few wks.
i hardly can haf one day spend wif my family.
needless to sae even a lunch or dinner tog wif them.
sometimes i do haf de chance to but haf to forgo cos of frens.
every mornin my mum will ask mi de same ting "nt comin hm for dinner again?"
n i feel so bad to reply a "ya".
haf to leave hm earli for skool,
reach hm late.
i hardly get to c or tok to them.

wat worse is my day wif skool n tuition n trg.
earli in de mornin i've to force myself off my bed without enuff slp,
squeeze into train wif crowds n stand all de wae to dover,
after skool drag myself into de train n stand all de way till tampines or bedok,
haf to tk a bus frm interchange to my tuition place,
after tuition tk bus bac to interchange,
tk train all de way bac to dover for trg wen i don haf much energy left,
after trg tk bus to clementi for dinner,
finally took train bac hm.
hw many times mus i travel in a dae?
im so fuckin sick of my travellin time.

im so sick of doin tings wen i don wan to do it!
yet pple alwaz blame mi for stuffs tat mi myself didnt wan to do it!
lk as if i can choose?
lk i've a choice?
ya i do haf a choice to stop playin ball.
i alwaz haf to gif up on stuffs becos of bball.
frm sec skool till nw.
im so sick of it.
yet some pple jus don understand.
im so tired to explain anymore.

i've a choice nw.
stop playin ball.
gif up on everything.
de most haf skool n tuition.
tats it.
i can head hm after tat.
im sure my life wld be happier.
havin stayin at hm for whole dae wld be best for mi.
hw i miss doze times.

but can anyone put urself in my shoe?
do u all noe hw tired my life is nw?
to kp doin stuffs tat i don lk n forcin myself.

24/7 is nv enuff for me!
i've to squeeze so many stuffs tog n im draining myself out.
while im so mentally n physically tired,
i still haf to fake a smile.

im out.
i don wan such life anymore.
i don care hu will i lose.
friendship, love or whatever shit.

all i wan is freedom to choose wat i wan to do,
n nt listenin n doin wat others wan mi to do.
i rather stay at hm wif my family.


all i wan in my life is simple.
i jus wan mre time wif my family.
if dere's time,
it will be for frens n love.
but nw,
i don even haf time for family.
needless to sae for others.

am i wrong?
is wanting to spend mre time wif family a mistake?
mus i alwaz listen to others?

hw long mre mus i live wif such life.
my life is a mess.

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got a sad sad news..
my bdae clashes wif IVP AGAIN~
last yr clash wif POLITE.
tis yr IVP..........
somemre is 8th, 9th, 10th, 12th!
supposingly meetin frens on 8th n 12th.
but nw....
so sad.
games start at 8.45pm somemre =/
another sad bdae........

so lazy to blog nw alr.
moodless.


my FTT haf to wait for so long =/
dec la..
sian-ed.

tml lessons till 3pm.
gonna rush for tuition den rush to town to mit frens for ahma bdae.
gonna be so late.


joke of de week.
chang e wif yu tu.
haha


cherish/

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i PASSED my BTT!
hooray~!
im a step closer to my kia picanto.
thou i still haf hundreds steps ahead.
hahaha.

went for 2 tuitions todae.
gt fedup wif one of my tuitions.
reali don lk to teach them wen dey don haf de heart to learn lor.
lk teach them but dey donwan to studi or listen n do.
damn pekchek!
if nt for money,
i wld haf given up tutorin them long ago.
haha sounds so cheap rite. haha
gonna find mre tuitions so tat i can get mre steps to my picanto.
haha.

most prob gonna went dwn ubi drivin centre to get my PDL,
den can call up private instructors for drivin lessons.
but im so POK tis mth :(
haha.
gonna save save save!
wei le my picanto~
I WILL!
hahaha.
gif mi one year!
or more.... haha


skool startin on mon =/
sucks.
c my timetable oso headache :(

haf friendly tml evenin against tnet =/
im jus don haf de heart to play.
but im nt tryin to skip trgs or whatever.
jus tat i've other mre impt stuffs tat clashes wif trgs.
which i've no choice becos tuitions r indeed mre impt cos tats my job.
thou is obviously tat my skill n stamina haf been suckier n suckier nowadays.
wen skool starts,
gonna be busier.
cos haf to rush to east side for tuitions after skool den rush bac to skool for trgs -.-


oh oh!
watch 'i now pronounce u chuck n larry' wif J yest.
de priest inside de movie is sooo funny!
kp tokin abt circles rectangles triangles.
hahaha.
aniwae tat doesnt look lk M18 show at all la.
luckily dey didnt check J's NRIC. haha
ohya ate at fish&co beside Park Mall.
ambience is nice!
but food was so so nia..
disappointing. haha

met up wif kaiwei hazel yujin n caiying yest in town.
thanks for gifts frm yujin n kaiwei frm hongkong n china :)
nw i noe y tat channelu hey gorgeous don haf SP yet.
cos haben even film in SP.
n yujin barbar is gg for de audition.
i bet she gt no talent except lk wat de others said........
sing louder even without mic.
hahaha


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todae trg was lk HELL for mi.
too long didnt train physical.
almost fainted durin warmup ONLY.
my legs nw r lk jellyfish pls.

halfway durin trg,
went to register GEMs wif yvonne n mingshi.
gt nutrition n wellness.
haiii my guitar module~
haha

jinhui was late todae n she ran 20rounds,
sihui was even later than her,
so she ran 30rounds.
which means................
tis fri i will haf to run 30rounds too!!
OMG.
hope i can pass my BTT if nt reali waste my 30rounds of runnin man.
jinhui n mingshi was tokin abt BTT den lk everything oso will come out.
seems so tough to memorise =/

postpone my tuition to fri n sat again cos reali too tired n was late.
reached hm jiu slp.
but duno y lk so hot n stuffy todae =/


ahh tat movie 'i now pronounce you chuck and larry' is M18!!
-.- cant watch wif J again =/

tink tml meetin kaiwei caiying hazel yujin karen for kbox -.-
gonna sit dere n rot again.
haha.

maybe mit J after tat?
:)



cherish/

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lucky mi...
changed my basic theory test frm 28/11 to 13/11 to 21/9!
which is tis friday!!
haha.
jus nice too bored rot infront of com den saw gt one last slot on tis fri :)
cos i don lk to wait for tat long too.
den my sis sae even if i fail,(CHOY!)
i can oso faster retake (CHOY CHOY CHOY!!)
BUT!!
fri is trg day -.-
jus nice de test start at 9.15am
therefore,
gonna be late for trg n run lk hell again.
gt NO stamina at all.
IVP is comin.....
we've no centers.
sigh =/


yest mornin last tuition wif doze P1 kids.
thank god man.
if nt i reali will go nuts if cont teachin them..


next wk skool reopen ahhh!
n my timetable sucks so much.
don wanna wake up earli :(
alr used to wakin up in de noon alr lo.


ohya tml durin trg,
halfway gonna go register for GEMs.
cos manlin donwan choose tat guitar module,
so we shall put our first choice as:
1) nutrition n wellness
2) how to play classical guitar

haha duno if karen gt into tat guitar module nt cos she sae she wan it too.
but every fri oso mus bring own guitar lk abit troublesome oso. haha
buden my guitar had been rottin at my hm since i was sec1!!
n i totally forgot everything tat i had learnt.
tats y wana choose tat ma.
so cool la. haha
but dey donwan :(

yest bought cake n intend to surprise my sis at 12am
jus nice she went in to bathe at ard 11.50pm,
so we put de cake on table all tat.
but hu noes she bathe so fast tat we haben even light up de candles.
den was lk "wah lauuuuuu"
haha so end up no surprise =/


okay im gonna studi HARD for my BTT.
hahaha



HAPPY 22ND BDAE JENELLE TAN XIAO LIAN
HAPPY 18TH BDAE JACQUELINE ZHUO YI RU AHLU
HAPPY 19TH BDAE SHIQIN

cherish/

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went vivo for dinner wif family yest for my sis advance bdae.
ate Dian Xiao Er cos tink Bosses is lk damn ex.
but yest food was nice n damn full.
my mum asked if my bdae wanted to eat tis too -.-
but i prefer Bosses.
haha burn my mum's pocket.
hope she strike lottery these few days.
haha


went for tuition jus nw.
i swear i seriously feel lk grabbin their necks n strangle them.
HAHA.
dey're jus damn naughty jus nw.
till their teacher-in-charge saw wat happen thru de CCTV,
den she came in to scold them one by one.
luckily my last lesson wif them is next mon mornin.
if nt i tink i'll be squattin in de prison if i still cont to teach them.
HAHA

J's comin lata,
which means im cookin again.
rainy days.
wat a gd weather for slpin but i still haf to cook =/
haha


ohya,
finally move my butt to go dwn ubi to book my basic theory.
i've been sayin n sayin n sayin for 1yr,
nw i finally booked it.
but it's lk end of nov -.-



cherish/

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oh my....
gt my timetable alr.
so packed laa.
esp MON & TUES!
sucks!

mon - 8am to 5pm (10am to 1pm break -.-)
tues - 8am to 5pm (onli 12pm to 1pm one hr break!!)
wed - 10am to 1pm (most prob havin GEMs till 3pm)
thurs - 10am to 2pm
fri - 8am to 1pm


tis time table reali tempt mi to pon alot.
cos 8am lesson is alwaz tutorial.
purposely one laaaa.
nehneh.
den gif us long break den after tat all lectures will tempt mi to pon oso.
wah tis kind of time table reali kinda difficult to arrange my tuition timing -.-


yest nite went peipei's hse wif chris, manlin, sharon n ahma.
play overnite mahjong.
DAMN TIRING.
tis mornin took train hm was lk walkin zombie.
nw onli slp for a few hrs jiu woke up.
gonna go out soon lata..

i still haf 2 tuitions tml cos makeup extra lessons =/


cherish/

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okay woke up earli to check my result.
thou im lucky enuff tat i didnt fwd any module.
but kinda disappointin.
doze tat i tot i cld haf done beta,
end up i get a lousier grade -.-

i tot for HRM,
i cld at least gt a A or a B,
but i onli gt a C -.-
nt even a C+.....
haiiii.
final paper weightage is 50%,
for proj n CA stuffs,
i gt 40%/50% can.
tis showed hw badly i've done for my final paper.
onli gt a C....
disappointin.

same for Bizlaw.
i gt a D-!!!
wtf!
i gt 75/100 for CA n i don tink my proj gt so bad.
but nw i merely passed my Bizlaw at D-!!!
first time gt such bad grade.
tis is super disappointin..

luckily my FMA passed n gt a D+.
at least i passed.
even done beta for FMA than Bizlaw.
haiii kill me.

so glad tat my RWPS tutor didnt fail mi.
gt a C+ for it.

to my surprise,
sucky GEMS module wif liz, manlin, jialing, peiwen n mervin,
i gt a B -.-
hw nice it will be if de grade B is for my Bizlaw n HRM.
haiiii.


okay let mi summarise overall result:

Discovering Music (GEMs) : B
Human Resource Management (HRM) : C
Electronic Commence Management (ECM) : C+
Supply Chain Management (SCM) : C+
Report Writing & Presentation Skill (RWPS) : C+
Financial Management Accounting (FMA) : D+
Business Law (BLAW) : D-


due to my last yr sucky result.
n i didnt do well for tis sem due to tat 2 D(s) i gt,
i've Semester GPA at 1.935,
but Cumulative GPA at 1.767 cos my last yr GPA is toooo bad.
it's okay,
i've improved.



I'LL STUDY HARD IN NEXT SEMESTER!

so disappointin..
haiii.
no mood to go for trg alr.
=/




cherish

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im nua-ing nw till tuition at 4pm lata.
yest had P1 eng tuition.
i swear dey're reali a BIG headache.
one of de gal actualli took away 2 of my pencils :(
sad case,
i don haf a pencil nw.

de teacher-in-charge jus called n asked mi to haf extra lesson for them on fri mornin.
which means,
i cant go trg tis fri again =/
cos trg 9.30am starts and tuition 9.30am starts too.
wen one is at dover,
one is at pasir ris -.-


jus rem tml is wed n will be havin trg in de mornin.
ahh tis wk i gt 7days mus wake up earli~
booooo :(
im so used to slpin till noon.
ohya!
tml wed which means i'll be gettin bac my result!!
god bless god bless!

yeah thurs most prob gg to vivo tat Bosses restaurant wif family n sis's bf.
cant wait cant wait!!
im in a dilemma in buyin present for my sis.
her bdae wishlist:
1) Gucci Tote Bag (cost lk $1000+++ pls)
2) Burberry Wallet ($380 -.-)
3) LongChamp Tote Bag (duno price of tis but of cos nt cheap)
4) G Star Denim Drainpipes (again duno price but again sure nt cheap)
5) Calvin Klein Watch ($230)
6) Salvatore Ferragamo Incanto Dream (ard $100)
7) Mazda 3 SP Sedan ($60,000) hahaha!

all is lk above hundreds la.
cheapest is tat perfum buden tink her frens sure buy her tat.
den wat can i still buy?
mazda 3?
haha.
was tink of tat Calvin Klein watch buden she gt so many watches alr,
somemre i duno wat design is tat oso.
hmmmmmm...........



cherish/

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oh man i love my sis N76!
because.....................
it's RED!
it's a FLIP PHONE!
it's SLIM!
it'd SHALALA CUTE GAMES!
therefore,
i'll make tat my bdae present frm my family.
AHEM!


i spend my weekends nua-ing at hm.
i've no idea y i gt so lazy durin weekends.
i jus don feel lk gg out except stayin at hm wif my sis n bro.

argh it's monday tml.
i hate monday.
i've gt 3tuitions tml =/
9.30-11
3-5
6-7.30
=/
between 11 to 3,
it will be too bored if i stay outside cos i've nth to do wif tat 4hrs.
but if i went hm,
i'll haf too few hrs for mi to tk a nap
=/
im so confused.


IVP starting AGAIN :(
hope it wont clash on my bdae lk last yr POLITE again =\
i haben train since after POLITE.
sigh.


18/9 - sis 22nd bdae. ahlu 18th bdae.
26/9 - ahma 18th bdae (i mean wanhui)

im gonna be so poor tis mth again :(
where haf all my money gone to??
again on doze tat CANOT be seen =/


oh will be gettin bac result on 12/9!!
whether will i repeat my modules will depend on tis dae!
omg god bless me :)



cherish/
sorry baby <3

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woohooo im bac frm chalet!

first day
J came in de mornin to prepare prawns n squids.
headed to pasir ris to mit ahma, sharon, ame, peipei, chris, liz n lac.
check in n waited for manlin n ahlu to come n bbq time.
chalet become game session lidat.
cos ame didnt bring her psp den onli chris n i brought.
everytime wen we're inside de rm,
lk nt a single min tat our psp till be left alone.
haha all went in jiu kp playin crazy taxi or other games.
duno wat so fun abt tat. haha
played kings cup at nite.
played wif absolute vodka n other drinks.
admit tat im a lousy drinker.
gt hot n red v fast but im nt drunk lor.
noe wat im doin but jus nw sometimes canot ctrl. haha
kp played taupok wen we c anyone lyin dwn.
haha buden sharon, ahma n manlin damn violent.
cos wen we gg to jump on them,
dey will start to kick kick kick -.-
slpin is de worse part.
cos no space to slp den v squeezy.


second day
supposed to go wild wild wet or escape but end up didnt.
ate breakfast n went walkin ard n playin games inside rm.
evenin went to rent overnight bike n ride all de way to tampines mall for dinner.
butt is lk pain....................
went bac rm ard 10plus den started playin games again.
cos bathe liao den donwan cycle if nt dirty again.
haha kinda waste money.
waited till i fall aslp again den dey played kings cup again.
lk everytime durin last nite of chalet or oversea,
i sure will fall aslp wen de rest play kings cup.
haha cos tat time we SP go bangkok,
i oso fall aslp durin last nite wen dey played kings cup till v noisy.


last day
woke up by manlin's alarm -.-
kp ringin n ringin n ringin but nobody wake up to snooze it.
end up reali bth den drag myself up to let it shut up. haha
but after awhile, sharon's alarm rang too -.-
ate mac breakfast n hm sweet hm,
while i went tuition str den went hm to slp.
nid a gd nite slp if nt my panda eyes will be too.............




aniwae,
my sis bought N76 alr -.-
she damn she de to buy lor.
$438 eh.
thou i wan a red flip phone too but $438 reali bu she de lor =/

oh cos my sis bdae on 18th sep but celebrate advance bdae.
so gg out to eat on next thurs.
cos my sis wana go international buffet den tink is 1for1.
cos jus nice our family gt 4pple but maybe she bringin her bf along.
but lidat jiu 5pple den bring 1mre pple jiu jus nice.
den my sis sae ask my aunt go buden lk weird weird ma.
discuss for quite long den..........
my mum suddenly remarked "ask ur tat fren go la"
she's referin to J cos i nv tell her abt J's name or wat before so she alwaz sae tat fren tat fren.
haha den my sis n i was lk -.-
so weird la den we act lk y mus ask her along cos so weird.
den my mum jiu "if nt u jiu bring a bf lor"
my sis "where gt bf, gf jiu gt la"
den i faster changed topic.
haha lk family dinner den if reali bring J is lk too obvious?
thou is alr v obvious. haha


for every mth,
dere'll be one wk tat i'll kp swingin n swingin.
hate it.
hate my moodswing.
hate de way i vent my anger.
wats wrong wif mi..
i ruin everything.

okay gonna haf a gd nite slp.
tml evenin trg?


cherish/

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my student miss out tis price tag below wen it's right infront

but she rem to tear out de price tag behind -.-
teachers' day presents. HOHO

below is current hip for primary skool students.

WATER BABIES. hahaha

aniwae tis was taken by my student

saw tis opp my hse.
hung lk 8bamboos whereas by right onli can hang 5 -.-

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catch RATATOUILLE wif J jus nw!
soooooooooo FUNNY!!
doze rats r sooooooooooo CUTE!!
:D

oh went B&J for ice cream.
bought tat Merlionster cos it haf 6scoops of icecream n BROWNIES!
omg BROWNIES wif cookies cream r jus soooooo NICE
:)


duno im too excited for chalet or wat cos i cant fall aslp,
but im tired =/
still havin tuition tml mornin but tink de student's mum jus sms mi tat she's nt free tml.
but duno y she nt free gt anything gt to do wif de student,
since im tutorin her son n nt her -.-
so maybe tml no tuition which means i can slp abit mre :)

J gonna come my hse earli in de mornin.
gg market to buy some bbq stuffs.
don wana be organiser next time alr.
gt to prepare so many stuffs =/



cherish/

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i gt my FIRST teachers day present todae!
duno hw to describe tat kind of hwee-ling
hahahaha.
thou teachers day present is alwaz de same.
tink bac to my pri n sec skool.
either buy notebook or photoframe or pen or whatever stuffs tat a teacher nid. haha

frm 2 students of de same family.
before givin it to mi,
de older one still stand at de door secretly at dere shh shh to de younger one.
hahaha :)

after tuition saw msg n trg was cancelled =/
went hm to nua after tuition.
gt too lazy to went out to mit mates for dinner n stuff.
so im here bloggin. haha


RATATOUILLE tml here i come~~

2mre days to chalet
hohoho :D


cherish/

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sooo tired nw.

J came my hse yest.
cooked lunch for her den watched vcd whole dae.
watched my fav show.
tat channelu 10pm show 水浒无间道 haha
sooo nice lor :)
after J left,
i still cont watchin till 6plus in de MORNING -.-

woke up at 11am cos gg sentosa wif frens.
sooooo tired.
cos haf to wait for ahma,
so mi, J, manlin, ame, peipei, ahlu n chris went vivo first for lunch n stuffs.
wen ahma arrived is lk alr 2pm -.-
by de time we reached sentosa,
rain came pouring dwn again =/
but J, ahlu, ame n i still cont playin soccer in de rain while de rest sittin under shelter.
after rain,
cont playin wif de rest till ard 5plus jiu left cos gt weite de trg.
thou todae trg no pple lidat but we played 3on3.
fun fun fun.
miss de fun wif them.

yeahhh chalet next wk :)


thou no sun todae but duno y my face is kinda red n pain =/
i wanna cut hair tml!!
ahlu's gettin mre n mre girly (her hair)
jessica gettin mre n mre gayish (eyebrow)
HAHAHAHA



cherish/