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learnt my lesson.
it's always cos of me to result in all these troubles.
i don have the intention to,
but it always turns out to be my fault.
all along,
i treasure you guys.
i can stand all unreasonable acts.
as long as i don lose your over small matters.
but everyone's patience have limit.
don think just because i'm always easy going n your can climb over my head.
when i don have the intention to cause trouble,
but end up i've to carry all the rap for something i did not do.
i keep quiet.
cos i don wanna quarrel with frens.
but now?
i really cant stand it.
i fucking don wanna care about all those bullshit,
but why must you always drag me in?
i treat you all as frens but what your treat me as?
a piece of shit that i don deserve any respect at all?
i really learnt my lesson.
i'll not trust anyone anymore,
including you.
disappointed is all i can say.
i trust your.
i rather chose to tell the truth.
but what did i get?
backstab behind my back?
complaints behind my back?
plant a spy behind my back?
why cant i earn respect and trust?
like how i respect and trust your.
i've enough of all these rubbish.
from now on,
anyone annoy me with that again,
i wont entertain any fuck anymore.
fucking hell get lost in my life.
i already screwed up my life for some fuckin stupid incident.
wtf is all these!
cos i'm easy to bully?
wont angry?
angry period very short?
so i've to carry all the blames?
i carry all blames cos i don wanna lose your!
do you all know how i feel not?
do your know it's so fuckin pain?
fuckin trust.
fuckin lies.

since your think i changed.
okay i'll change for your to see.

what you guys want to see?
show?
want me to go back and be like normal right?
okay.
since all along i've no right to decide on my own stuffs.
i've to care about what others see.
i've to make a decision that everyone will be happy about it.
wtf.
it's my life you know?
BULLSHIT.

first day of work with liz yesterday.
quite fun but stress.
and liz instead of helping me,
she's making me throw face only -.-
cause she direct me to wrong things for 2 times!
-.-
want hai me only.
other than that,
the rest of the staffs are quite nice.
going for project meeting soon.
training after that.