.

last paper yesterday.
hazel said i look thinner already,
but yujin said im girly with my hair longer now =/

time for a haircut before i leave.

late for work today.
was damn tired and headache.
cat and friends passed by,
and she said i'm girly too =/
everything were smooth at work.
keep laughing and playing with cheryl.
and keep going into kitchen to disturb liz at the bar.

intitally still looking forward to something.
end up only disappointment.
then,
until something happened and spoilt my mood totally.
i admit i'm affected.
and things started to go wrong.
started to have those fucking fussy customers coming in.
was damn fed up by then.
until that stupid cheryl did something stupid again.
cause i heard a bang and when i turned,
i saw her keep laughing outside the door.
then she said cause she was looking at me,
and she didnt know the door was close,
so she bang onto it.
okay for that,
i keep laughing non stop.


work at 11am to 6pm tomorrow.
meeting friends after that.
hope everything goes smoothly.

sat gonna be my off day.
though suppose to have plans for that day.
but now,
forget it.



you'll never know how it feels.
cause all along,
you'd never care.
it's over, for good.

i felt even more stupid now.
to wait and hope, in vain.
hoping that my phone beeps.
i thought i think it through yesterday.
i thought i know what happen exactly.
i thought i know why will i feel this way.
i thought it's just a way to fill my empty heart.
i thought.
it's all fucking thought.

i never ever know what i want.